Sammonaran

I did this wrong. Looking back, finally seeing what all I have done, back during such a very stressful time in my life, I realize I approached this whole situation wrong. I isolated myself because I was afraid of the pain. I discarded this account because I was afraid of conflict and of trying to sort out so much of what others were going through. I wasn't being an attention whore. I was being an idiot, but not really to get attention. I took on the issues of others as a way to ignore my own problems. I took on mediation between others because I couldn't find solace within my own thoughts. I opened myself up so much that I was in physical pain from caring too much about how others felt and reacted to me, and to other friends. Whether or not how I handled this correctly is, actually, not even the point. It's already done. I left this account because I was reacting in pain and fear, and I let it determine the outcome, instead of rising above it. It was a mistake, and to everyone that I

News Alrighty...this is my last journal from this account. Before I give you the new account info, I want to say something to each of you. Followers...dedicated fans...friends...brothers, sisters...I could call you all so many different things, and each thing is said in the kindest way. I care about all of you, and I always have. I know I've not shown it that much, lately...and I know that there's not much excuse for that. I know I've screwed up in a lot of ways...but I've changed. Please understand, I've made a new account with a good purpose. Please understand that I'm moving forward in a way that most people may not expect, but is neede

The most painful thing... This is not going to be easy...for anyone... I was hoping to never have to say what is going to be said now...I guess I somehow always knew, but didn't know what entirely to make of it. However...there is a time when truth must be revealed. There also comes a time when things must be put into perspective. I'm going to attempt to illuminate what exactly has been going on with me. You all deserve to know what's been going on. I can't keep going on like this. This is more than a confession. This is more than what most people may understand. I am not going to be able to explain that well, because I don't even know how